i am going to get a cat to keep me company and cuddle with me. <3

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Here's the key point I think almost all Christians miss. Christianity = Love. Love God, Love Yourself, Love others. Jesus never forced anyone to change. He never pushed himself onto people, matter of fact, he never pushed anything at all. He just loved them regardless of their choices or lives. Way too many people try to change those they call 'sinners'. It doesn't matter what you think, all you have to do is love them! It's not your job to change them. God will work in their life as HE sees fit, not you! It's just LOVE. Not judging, not preaching, not forcing or guilt, not screaming on street corners. It's just quiet, simple, powerful LOVE.

I've had a pretty dang good week so far, just saying. I'm pretty content with my life, mostly. I'm actually really glad, I like feeling simply content sometimes. It's a nice feeling. Makes me want to drink tea. 

I want to do this thing, "In & Out." Things that are In for me this week, and things that should just go away.

In:

Glee. Holy crap, the Britney Spears episode was AMAZING. It made me want to listen to Britney and dance reaaally sexy in my room. haha.

Boyfriend. He'll always be in :) and he's been extra wonderful this week...not sure why.... hehe.

Romance novels. I still can't.stop.reading.them. I have three from the library now, and I have a whole bunch on hold.

Psychology. At first, I hated clinical. Now, it's not that bad. I really do love psych. :)

Ok this one is silly...American Dad. I CAN'T STOP!

Coastal Scents. I ordered my palette, and I'm crazy excited. It's my second "major" makeup purchase. I ordered a bunch of stuff from Sephora once for my friend's wedding in May, and last week I finally ordered the CS 88 palette. I typically only buy drugstore (read: crappy) makeup, since I can't afford anything else. But I want to start not only building up my personal collection but actually start a professional one as well. Which reminds me that I need to make a list of what I'll need in my kit at some point. Which leads me into the out...

Out:

MONEY. I finally kindasorta have a job, I start on Saturday. It's not much, which stresses me out a little, as I have to pay for a plane ticket, save for a car, attempt to save for dorming/studying abroad (ha ha...) aaaand the whole professional makeup kit thing.

Weird cravings. As soon as I say, I reaaally need to start eating well, then my body goes into denial and starts to crave everything that I shouldn't have. This week it's been breadsticks and anything sweet. I don't know why it want's breadsticks, I really don't...

Verb Conjugation. Eff You, Spanish.

Women's Studies. Ugh. UGH.

I'm glad that's all out of my system.

kay byeeee. <3

Without people to talk to, or my boyfriend with me 24/7, I really don't know what to do with myself. I just got back last night, (I was visiting my boy for august) so it's been only 30 hours that I've been without him. Already I don't know what to do with myself. We spent a month constantly together..so coming home really sucked. I have to force myself to remember how to be alone again, not in constant communication with him. I did it for a year, I can do it again. But it's surprising how one month completely knocked me over. I don't want to be used to talking to him once a day..I would much rather be used to waking up to his face every morning. 

Agh...I keep randomly crying. I'm really surprised by how much this hurts, did it hurt this much last time???

It'll be okay, though. I am sad because I miss him, and that's normal. But I know without a doubt that I will see him in 4 months. And soon, someday, this will all be over and we can really be together. I know all this for certain. Not only because he promised, but because it's right. He's the guy I want to spend forever with, and seeing him reminded me of how amazing he is and just how crazy in love I am with him. 

I start school in 3 days..I am really nervous. I don't want this semester to be like the one last year. It won't be...I know that. For one, I'm at a different school plus I'm not even dorming...and my best friend will be close, so I can see her a lot more. And I know I'll probably be working a lot too. I just really hope that it goes by fast and that I am not lonely. 

So yeah...I'm back to ramble on to myself here, because sometimes that's what I need. I should probably really write this all in an actual journal, since writing my feelings and posting it online is a bit awkward...but I hate writing with a pen and I really like my little thing here. I like how it's neatly organized, I can go back and see my life and how it's changed, and I just loooove to type...and use pictures. :)

Party season is upon us, and if you’re stressed about baring your under-moisturized skin in those revealing cocktail dresses, here’s a yummy DIY spa treatment that I picked up from celeb aesthetician Ole Henriksen: Cut up some lemon and orange slices, and after showering, lightly squeeze the juice onto your legs and shoulders. The citrus juice acts as an exfoliant and sloughs off dead skin cells. Next, take a sponge and douse your skin with a cup of plain yogurt—this’ll help calm skin and even out skin tone. Leave on for 10 minutes and rinse well. Treat your newly dewy skin to a little baby oil or favorite body lotion to help lock in moisture and you’re ready to go strapless.

- credit Glamour magazine

check out my newest Painted Ladies post here: http://www.painted-ladies.com/?p=6572

A Sneaky Nail Polish Trick to Glam Up Your LBD

Here’s a fun, bold way to add a little oomph to any little basic black frock you’ve got.Click here for the close-up you have to see!

Like 902010’s AnnaLynne McCord, wear your LBD with bright, neon yellow fingers and toes.

We see a lot of bright colors with black dresses on the red carpet, but this is the first yellow I’ve seen in a really long time. And what a fun shade—reminds me of lemon sorbet or a bumblebee (in the cutest way possible). Or actually, there’s a little green undertone, so I’m going with a Sprite.

The only catch here: Not every skin tone can pull off this kind of yellow. So if yellow generally makes you look sallow, you might want to consider going with a bright gold instead. —Beth Shapouri

I'm moving out of my dorm in less than 12 hours. It's making me really sad, actually. I was excited because of all the drama, but I've made more friends and I've really started to be happy here near the end. I can be a person who doesn't like to go out, who would rather chill at home, but I can also be social, and I like to go out or go to parties.

In all seriousness though, I'm so sad right now. I am supposed to be sleeping because my family is coming early to help me move, but I can't. And all my friends are cleaning; so I can't be bothering them with my sad-face. So instead, I'm stuck in my basically empty room- my home for almost a year- thinking about how much life changes. My best friend came to visit me this week, and it was so much fun. She's getting married and moving away...who knows where. It makes me really, really sad. I get a little teary (ok, a lot) when I think about it. I will miss her so much. She's really important to me, and I love her a lot. Anyway, we were talking about changes recently, and she pointed out how I've changed since when she first knew me. I used to be way more uptight that I am now. I tried really hard to keep up this image of being a good girl, who never did anything wrong, and I totally judged people who made decisions I didn't agree with. Most people really disliked me for that. I thought I was being legit and real, but it was so fake. Well, that's no longer me. I stopped trying to please everyone and started trying to please myself. I know that now, less people dislike me, which I find matters very little to me. Which is funny, because when I stopped worrying about people liking me, that's when I started to have fun and people started to enjoy my company. Go figure. I know my parents aren't as happy, I can tell. I no longer try to be a good little girl, perfect and righteous. I only try to be myself. And sometimes (a lot) that means I do really stupid things. Or things other people don't approve of. But really? I am so much happier than I've ever been.

I had to choose to finish college instead of moving to Madrid to be with Kike. It hurt..like hell. I would give anything to be with him everyday. But in the end, it all comes down to knowing what I have to do for myself. What will give me a good future? While being with him would make this pain go away, giving up education and being unemployed in a foreign country would destroy us. And I want to see him in my future. Truthfully, I see him there only if I do go to school. It'll hurt a lot, like it has for the past year. But I think we both learned a lot about how we have to do this thing, if we want it to work, and I think that over the next 2 or so years we'll learn a lot more. All we can do is try...and love each other, no matter what. 

Oh, life. Sometimes I hate you for being so hard. And sometimes you surprise me by being completely unexpected. I expect to be continually surprised by the changes that will happen. But don't go crazy, ok? Some things I need to stay the same. Like the people I care about, or...my major.